tragic

ive lost my laptop yesterday.with my academic cert & transcript.
fortunately,80% of my theses are available online as i lurve to upload it.
and today,the document bag which was also stolen,was found. some good samaritan
found it outside his house.however,my certs,2 cheques and my lappy is still missing.
then,i personally think,chopping a hand of the thieves is worth it!

tak paham

saya tak paham la

kalau dah tau gaji tu tak cukup sekadar cukup makan.
nape pegi ke hospital swasta yang kos bedahnya sampai
berpuluh ribu?

saya ni pon pi hospital kerajaan jek.walau saya mampu utk p hosp swasta
(ye anak pertama,kedua di hospital swasta).

kesimpulannya : kalo x mampu pegi je hosp kerajaan,servicesnya ok inshaallah.
kalo tak ok mungkin kafarah ke'kerek'an diri sendiri...(betul tak?).saya ni pon so far layanan
hosp kerajaan ok jek..kecuali yg 1st tuh kene suh balik sbb katil tak ckup.mana taknya ramai ibu2 indon bersalin kat selayang nu..(pas tu cabut tak bayar) yg kita ni rakyat kene tunggu2..dahla takde kereta sendiri masa tu

apa berlaku hari ini?

petang semalam , kelas pertama saya Research Methodology dgn studnt bac.edu.IT & Biology.
yg sonoknya kelas RM ni lebey kepada student centered.kita just guide..takla menyepoon feeding.
sonok terlibat dgn budak2 muda ni.otak pon refresh..semangat mereka pon kita bly curi (aci ke?)

ok.pengesahan penerimaan fax masih lagi x disahkan oleh satu jabatan di KPM.dah seminggu..nk pastikan fax dah sampai saja..bukan apa.nk mnta data statistik pon amatla susahnya.rasa cam pecah kepala saya ni.asik di'pass' talian kita ni kepada orang yg berlainan.masyaallah..menguji kesabaran

on the other hand,badan saya semakin x larat menanggung beban kerja yang terlampau.Allah saja yg memberi kekuatan dan ketabahan pada saya.turun naik tangga bley digagah.namun brain load masya allah..penatnya melebihi segala...nak2 plak keje collect data memerlukan fokus dan penumpuan dalam observation..

apa yg penting ...collect data musti setel b4 deliver.masa pantang analisis data dan siapkan chapter 4,5..ya allah..mmg dugaan..namun ini jalan yg kupilih di atas loronganMu..moga aku tabah dengan ehsanMu..

demam

smalam saya berhujan di UM..akibatnya saya demam..kepala berat hari ini..terpaksa berehat

sombre mood

i guess some traits are genetically inherited.be it good or bad..and I HATE THAT!!
caveat: before married someone , check the background of his/her family! it will tremendously affected your future and your kids!

tesis saya : ya allah..permudahkan segala kesulitan

memandangkan saya under fellowship ,so, saya diwajibkan mengajar dan dalam masa yang sama
menghabiskan tesis saya.jadi masa saya sangat2 terhad.dengan mengajarnya..dengan belajarnya..saya amik 2 subjek sem ni.dan ditambah dengan menghadiri seminar,conference, disamping menulis untuk dihantar ke seminar,etc,journal.disamping itu juga,saya sedang sibuk collect data.dan data saya bukan survey.since sy buat experimental dsign,saya terpaksa 'menginap' di skolah2 terbabit utk tmpoh yg lama.set intervensi saya mempunyai 3 bahagian dan tiap bahagian mengambil masa 1 minggu.dan setelah habis intervensi,pemerhatian akan disambung untuk tempoh lagi 2 minggu..dan selepas itu 1 minggu utk temuramah..(padan muka..sapa suh wat mixed method..)jadi keseluruhannya termasuk pretest dalam 7 minggu.dan harap2 smpt b4 deliver.dan at the same time.kene tackle 2 skool dlm 1 week.satu di jln peel satu di kg baru..lagi skali..adoiii..(nk nangis pon ade.dgn sarat..now im 7 months pregg..serius..mmg sgt pnt dan xley nk gagah sangat..)plannya b4 deliver dah setel collect data n dah siap chapter 1,2,3 alhamdulillah cuma chapter3 sdg merefine biar hujah kukuh..dan sdg mncari cara2 control extraneous variables..(selain dr researh design)thanks ummul dari upnm & kak ziha dr UTM for helping me..selain dr jegak n dr lateef.(bab qual)...nk analysis data bley stat after 2 weeks pantang..ye..saya mmg rush habiskan and now 3rd sem wat research..(wasting 1 sem amek coursework mode)...apa pun saya tau,allah akan memudahkan hambanya yang bersungguh2 dalam pekerjaan.dan anak dalam kandungan saya ini (dan sume anak2 saya) didedah dengan ilmu dan akademik sejak alam rahim...(nuha pon da dapat tangkap sikit2 sign language..cthnya..ummi,walid,A,B,C)tapi suka tgk TV..dan die dah pandai lukis muka org..dgn muka bulat,telinga,mata,dan mulut..(apsal idong xde?)kikikikik..yg nusaibah suka membaca dan menulis..tak suka tv.mcm2..habis disuruh kita baca buku Doranya..mickeynya..kalo tgk playhouse disney cite2 tu siap lekap bukunya kat skrin tv.mcm2..

itula..di kala penat2,mmg telatah ank2la pengubatnya..walaupun kdg2 rasa geram juga nak nak bila drang gaduh..apa2pun..saya percaya..susah payah di hari ini..inshaallah ada hikmahnya

pilot test in SKPK Selangor

i was busy for the last whole week.did pilot test in SKPK Selangor for deaf students.I did the pilot test with 2 students and a teacher.My sample is too small since the population itself is estimated around 18-20 students.dealing with special kids need tremendous patience,energy and compassion.most of the special kids tend to share the same traits.i havent analyse the data collected yet.but as usual,the threats to experimental research is extraneous variables (EV).and in my case,i hope the EV wont interfere.and im guessing for the real test,i need to match the respondents and ANCOVA will help me..(im still comprehending on how ANCOVA will help normalize the data)..aduuhh...pening2.

this is amira.she is a profound deaf student.she is currently no 2 in her class.

this is amrina.she also a profound deaf student.she has brother in a same school.
cute isn't she?

this is cikgu ain and monitor,naim.naim has a residual hearing and he can hear (given that you shout at him) and he can response to you orally (although it is not so clear).

I will do the report and inshaallah will present the findings on the upcoming seminar FPP.it is either published as book chapter or journal..whatever it is,i really want to share it with all who interested.gambatte!!!

wife

“My most brilliant achievement was my ability to be able to persuade my wife to marry me.”
Winston Churchill quotes (British Orator, Author and Prime Minister during World War II. 1874-1965)

if my husband says this,the world would be mine.humbling himself to devote his love to me...masyaallah..although my husband rarely uttered those sweetie sticky words,but deep inside i know how much he loves me.thank Allah for granting me such a wonderful husband..(somebody compliment him said he looks like Sheikh Muszaphar!ahaks!)..it is not the face that counted..holistic evaluation is important (again,my cacophony world of academic writing domineering my lovely dovey part.sort of bipersonal eh?)..again..i love you all by my heart!if abang read this,please dont blush-blush eh!

affection

today was a hectic day. i spent most of the day in Faculty.i got class until 9 pm.
and went home,after some relaxing moment,i watched CSI NY..Then indulged myself watching
Camp Rock.It is unplanned.ALtho it is for teenagers,i watched it and observed what the characteristic of the western people which is good for us to adopt.First , they showed love and care (in this case,i refered to the parents-child,spouses relationship).How many of us recall how many times our parents show their love affectionately towards us?or how many times they congratulate us for our success and console us when we were sad?I guess the answer is relatively small consider the length of our life.In Camp Rock,the mother hugged her daughter when her daughter considerably won the battle of self-knowing and self-appreciating.I refer to Mitchie who came from lovable but moderate class of family.Her mother is a cook and Mitchie herself helping her mom to earn some cash for that camp. She is a talented singer.HOwever,she failed to acknowledge that she came from a mid-class family.In the heated arguments,her mother consoling her to be proud of herself no matter what and she continued to join the Final Camp and done absolutely magnificent performance.Her mother and father so proud.Not because of she was just talented but because she realized her own talent!!!see the differences between those two situation?Realizing your own talent takes self-appreciation.And her mother praised her for that quality!For me it is so deeply concerned with the way of building the child self-esteem which is very low in the eastern culture.We tend to have the attitude to leash all the negative but dumping all the positive factors on the closet.I just dont understand why.If one person deserve a praise,why dont we just say it?

alamak..suddenly my entry a bit menjela-jela..thank Allah..my migrain n headache is gone.and i know the cause : strain on my neck from long hours of laptop usage..i should take precaution after this.

Thanks Shilme

before,thanks 4 ur concern..the migrain is off but still with 5% of headache that can be 'tahan'.my dearest friend , Shilme Adam who lives in a far far away land ,in Dublin ,awarded me with this special recognization...ooo my i really appreciated it.

1) Copy badge "2009 Cute's Blogger Award" & paste on your blog
2) Link the person who give you the award
3) Write 10 facts/hobbies or anything you like to tell us about yourself

ABOUT ME : NURUL MAZLAN aka NURUL NAJIB

1.i am happily married to my husband,Najib Saad who decided to jump into biz field after years of studying in Al-Azhar Univ in Syariah Islamiah..(sometimes,i just wondering why..)

2.since my birth,i easily fall sick.i guess my low immunity system is the culprit.and now,my Nuha follows me.

3.i hate exams

4.i love indulging myself with research & tonnes of reading material.

5.eventually,i feel comfort wif my tudung labuh,which I sewn by myself almost 9 years ago..(still in good condition)..i tried wearing any other tudung..since it is bit time consuming,i abandoned it easily.

6.like shilme,i miss Egypt (particularly Cairo) and i miss Dr Aiman from AzZahra Musytasyfa AlTibb in Haiyu Sabiek,Madinat Nasr (Hosp Azzahra in Seks.7 NasrCity) who monitoring both my pregnancy & delivered my Nusaibah.

7.i love gardening and flowers.

8.i struggling hard to establish my finance so that it would be benefited my children's education in future.

9.Most of my domestics,beauty prods are from HPA which are organics and halal.I tried to minimize the dependency towards chemical-based and uncertain status prods.i want my family grown up with the halalan toyyiban foods & environment.

10.im a very self-regulated person with high ambitions although lacking of energy and health plaguing me , aiming to submit my dissertation end of this year!inshaallah!aja aja fighting!

i write this 10 points with on-and-off headache.it sort of makes me less motivated to do my job.oo allah...ease my pain...

illness

my kids just arrived from K.Trengganu last midnite.They followed my parents there.
Nuha's eczema became worsen and infected.eventho,b4 she left,it getting better.maybe she needs extra care and now my husband & I started the intensive nursing care.we bathed her with special soap for skin probs,Clay soap,anti histamine syrups,Dexchloropheramine,topical antibiotic cream,Fucidin..and we put a piece of tissue so that she wont scratching on it.

i felt so worry for her.and for myself,the migrain attacked again....nauzubillah..it was sooooooo badd and unbearable...i cant open my eyes or the sharp pain will attack..and my eyes became watery and i just cant stand straight..i dont take any meds for that..and only air zam zam and madu helped me to relieve.

and today,i have to go to Bhg Pendidikan Khas,to obtained yet another permission before entering the skools and at the same time ive already approached 1 skool for my research.and,im still completing my paper for SNE conference and data analysis for research on sense-of-humour among teachers.

oo allah grant me strength

020709

smalam ade farewell party utk 'opismet' kami faradilla roselan yang akan melanjutkan pelajaran ke australia dalam bidang zoologi next month.bertempat di la apprenti ,UPM,kami berheboh2 di sana.moga dilla sukses di Ozzzie nanti..inshaallah kalo rezki akak , kita jumpa di sana la ya.

posing dgn cupcakes masing2

hari ni,dapat surat kebenaran drpd EPRD by post..peliknya..suppose saya amik sendiri jek..sbb ri tu x sertakan self-adressed envelope with stamps.tup tup da ada kat umah.next step,tulis surat kat BPK plak..sungguh banyak kijeku ni.

and we thinking of applying scholarship from MOHE.try dulu..mana tau dapat kan...kami teaching assistant yang sengkek...kikikik...dr shaffe nk result reliability utk dipresent dlm satu seminar di beijing..setelah mengicak supaya nama saya dimasukkan as author skali,die stuju..alhamdulillah.tapela..berdikit2...ramai gak academician started dr bawah cam saya ni..walaupun begitu,i enjoyed my works + study!!!sayang UPM...(prof maimunah amikla kami jadi permnanent staff!!)jijiji

renungan

allah dah tentukan rezeki manusia.
allah maha adil dan rezeki tidak datang
dari segi kebendaan sahaja.itu kene ingat.
keimanan,ketenangan hati juga rezeki.
begitu juga ketabahan,kasih sayang.
apa yg penting.kita mensyukurinya.

pathetic me

sudah 830pm.saya masih di opis.dengan lapaq.letih.sejuk.
mengantok..adoi..manala husbandku ini?